Friday, August 19, 2011

Why do I always get the short end of the stick?

well today was the last day of exam's and I am not so good in Biology and Geometry and I took the biology midterm exam yesterday and i felt so confident and I knew i was gonna do good because I did a lot of notes on the subjects she was going to test us on and today the results came in and i got a F on the midterm exam. When I saw that i wanted to cry because i tried so hard and I still didn't do good....and then today I took the Geometry midterm exam and I was kinda not feeling it because my real teach got sick for 2 months and at that time we didn't learn anything because he was not there so now we have different teacher that is not so good in his lessons and I got another F for Geometry and when I saw that i started to hyperventilate and my eyes started to get dark and I was taking a lot of breaths and then I later started to calm down and I just started to scream to the point that my throat started to hurt and I scratched my face out of anger and I just wasn't safe to be alone at that time....but i just really want to do good....but my over all grades are A,A,C,B but my midterm test grades are F,F,C,A and i don't like that....i just really wished i did better like the other kids in my cl because i do try hard its just maybe I'm not as smart or something...and at times like these I really loath myself and degrade myself because I'm just so disappointed in me and i just don't know how to tell my mom because i feel like she will doubt me and not believe in me....i want her to be proud of me.....

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